There's a part of me that feels disappointment that I'm not even close to reaching my goal. It makes me question whether this project is good enough, whether I'm good enough and deserving, whether people care about eating disorders, whether people care about my own recovery, and the list goes on.
Another blow came when a "friend" told me in essence that I shouldn't be doing certain cover songs because I don't sound good singing them. She said that someone from outside my family had to tell me because my family is probably too scared to tell me the truth. I kindly asked her to please stop sending me messages because she was hurting my feelings, however she just had to send one more. I'm not sure what her purpose of doing this was. It's amazing how one person can shake your faith in yourself. I've chosen to let her words roll off my back. I don't need her approval or really anyone's approval for pursuing my dreams.
My dream is to sing and perform and to bring awareness about eating disorders. Not until I received treatment and went into a partial hospitalization program did I realize how sick I was. Not until I was eating regularly and watched my body change did I realize how much abuse my body had taken.
Music is an amazing outlet for me. I love listening to songs that pull at my heartstrings and hearing something new inside the music. I've chosen the songs I'm covering because they help me express how I feel, good or bad. I've also find comfort in writing lyrics. I've been writing lyrics for a very long time, but I never thought I could ever share them because no one could know about my struggles. Now I want to share these personal lyrics so others know they are not alone. We all know what's it like to find that one song that moves us, stirs something inside us that we can't exactly explain, but we know we've found something special.
To be able to share this music and my message of body acceptance and self love, I need your help. Producing an album takes a lot of time and effort and it comes with a price. If you are able please pledge $1 and share this campaign with others.
Let's change the world one song at a time.
Here is the link to my campaign: https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/2026292512/emilys-eating-disorder-recovery-music-album?ref=project_share
Thank you so much for your support!
